noun; VIVACITY

What? I'm not a 3 year old child.

2010-09-07T20:02:00.001+08:00

A child is playful, he jumps down from his chair, then onto the bed, you reprimand him for not looking after his own safety. A man loves excitement, he leaps off the bridge as he does a bungee jump, you cheer for his guts.

But may I ask you? Who, is the one putting himself in danger?

Could you neglect the danger of bungee jumping, much larger as compared to a mere leap from the chair to the bed? But why, must the child suffer such consequences out of ‘fun’ when a fully grown man puts himself in danger (too, out of ‘fun’) but gains the acceptance of the society? Why should people put children at such a position where we must refuse to agree to whatever opinions or actions they are doing.

Racism, sexism are examples of people looking down on a group of people. Such expressions are unacceptable by the society, then why must the opinion of a child be regarded as unimportant?

I do not understand, why are people scolding one another as being ‘childish’ ?

child·ish [chahyl-dish] Show IPA
–adjective
1.of, like, or befitting a child: childish games.
2.puerile; weak; silly: childish fears.
(extracted from Dictionary.com)

Am I being sensitive or does it simply seem like an insult to a child. Why is being like, or being similar to a child can be in anyway related to a person being weak or silly? Why is telling another person that he or she is similar to a child is termed as an insult? Why are we ostracizing them? Why is it a norm when people insult each other by saying something like this? Why is it accepted by all of us? Something as simple as “Are you kidding me?” seems to imply the feeling of being kid as being silly.

When having the feeling of being cheated, in many scenarios, people would say “Do you think that I’m a three-year-old?” (Especially with the reference of many dramas.) Well, I don’t understand, WHAT IS WRONG WITH BEING A 3 YEAR OLD?

Every single one of us have been young, a child. Why are we looking down on ourselves in this case? As a child, most of us would want our words to be regarded importantly, but unless you’re capable of getting a PHD at 12 or below, your word would not be regarded importantly as a child.

As you can see, I am no child with a PHD and I definitely do not expect anybody to regard my words seriously. Therefore, I have penned this down while I’m still a teenager just in case later in time, I might probably, too, say something like…

What? I’m not a 3 year old child.

Haha.

One day, you'll understand me. Maybe.

2010-05-07T19:59:00.002+08:00

In a midst of examinations and stress currently.

I feel weird. The fact that when I'm with a group of people, I just can't fit in. I really want to tell all my lame jokes, make friends and be this cheery person. But I can't and I'm not. Sometimes, I can be like a block of old and boring wood, sitting down there, so extremely silent. But that isn't me, I'm supposed to be this kinda noisy person, but there I am, sitting in that corner in class, being the same old loser. But I ain't that happy-all-day person either. Sometimes i just like the feeling of peace and quiet. Then again, I've got too much of them.

The kind of feeling when you want to burst out laughing so loudly, but because you are supposedly the "quiet girl in class that nobody notices," you have to learn to contain it. They don't know me, I don't even know if I know myself well enough. I'm sure I'm not hypocritical, probably just a little too shy. Or rather, way too shy. I wasn't this type of person before... or am I? Probably I've always been this way, maybe I've just felt this just a little more exceptionally during my secondary school days.

Oh well, shan't bother so much it. Shall spend more time studying.

拿得起, 就要放得下. :)

2010-04-14T22:22:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone. I pronounce to myself that the craziest thing I have ever done is to squat in the most ultimately awkward position in front of so many people in the hall today.

"Thou shalt not be afraid of any embarrassment ever."

And I'm a lazy bum, booyah. :D

Byebye.

我的寶貝, 要你知道你最美.

2010-04-02T15:17:00.003+08:00

Today is good friday cause there is no school. Precisely the point right? since it's called GOOD friday. Haha. I find myself so super tired nowadays, I wonder why. Kept falling asleep without bathing (gross, I know). I love the days I get to stay at home and just laze around. I practically just lie down everywhere. I was supposed to go to malaysia over the weekends but my mum didn't let me go cause she's afraid i can't make it back to singapore on time. Oh wells. I have to do well for my mid years or I'm gonna die. I'm afraid I can't make it into a junior college. There's like this bad feeling recently.

There are certainly times when positivity turns you blind.

URGE!

2010-03-21T21:06:00.006+08:00

I've got this sudden urge to blog, somehow. I just want to say,

I AM SO EXTREMELY EXCITED ABOUT 22 MAY 2010 !

Getting to see this guy, who won't get excited? :D

I have already saved about half of my $150. YAY. (Which means I cannot eat recess, but I shouldn't be eating anyway. x.x )

And I feel so stressed cause I know school is gonna come tomorrow. (or should i say in a blink? ) I always have monday blues. :( Tuesday would be E-learning, I do hope we can go back to school for dance though. Now... I've lost my sudden urge. :)

9 days goes past so easily.

2010-03-21T13:03:00.003+08:00

Hello! Holidays are over in a few hours! :O But oh wells, here's the very belated post for dance senior's farewell party. :D

And I'm way too lazy to elaborate. heh. :P

Goodnight!

SOMETIMES, I THINK OF...

2010-03-15T21:02:00.003+08:00

How easily I get forgotten.

I went to buy stuffs for senior's farewell party with Xunlin today. I guess this would be my first and maybe last time buying 14 boxes of chocolates. Yeah, that's kind of a lot. We did cards for them too. I was in charged of drawing the bears on it while she wrote the long paragraph we intend to RECITE out to them tomorrow! :D (Shall post the contents up tomorrow after the party.) Pretty excited about tomorrow. :)

新加坡e乐大赏2010!

2010-03-14T16:05:00.004+08:00

XIAOGUI! :D This is not taken by me, I was at a much further seat. :(

I went to the E! entertainment awards yesterday! YAY! I saw like so many, many, many stars! Happy like crazy. Went to meet Xunlin and Yangjin, then went there together. Sat different seats with Yangjin cause she never buy tickets with us so she sat with her mother. When Xiaogui comes out me and Xunlin shouted super loud! It's so amazing to get to see him, heartbeat really increases! Me and Xunlin was saying that if Show Luo comes, we would both faint. :p We shouted extra loud especially when Xiaogui says: "后面的朋友!" Haha! Shinee was super popular of course, had to stand on the chair to see cause got so many Shinee fans standing on the chair. :O The whole thing ended super late so we took a cab home and I only got home at around one plus, reaching two in the morning. But it's worth it to get to see Xiaogui! :D

PUNS. :D

2010-03-07T17:35:00.003+08:00

i can't smile properly, see?

WAZZUP! :D

Hello to few-random-people-who-happens-to-be-reading-my-blog!

Common test is over. Don't really want to bother thinking about my result cause no matter what i do, it will still come out pretty much the same. ( no, i'm not a pessimist, i'm just lazy. :p ) We're going to bintan next week. Not really looking forward to it cause I'll... die in the sun. The weather is so freaking hot everyday, can't imagine how it would be like there. I haven't pack and check my stuffs too. better do it soon.

DONE AND OVER.

2010-02-21T23:28:00.003+08:00

HEY BABES, Chingay is over! Which means hello to 10 o'clock good night routines! But I gave it up tonight to post you see. :D

yay!

LOvE! Haha.

I look funny i know, but oh wells. It's still fun that night even if we only saw ourselves on television for like 2 secs. :o

Oh yeah! Happy CNY! Way too belated. :p

CCHY CHINESE DANCE SYF 2009!

2010-01-31T16:34:00.000+08:00

IT'S ALL LOVE! :D

Excuse me.

2010-01-27T21:49:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone. Haven't updated for pretty long. Didn't have much time. Time to improve on homework doing speed. I've been coping okay in sec 3 life but I wasn't able to go online for long cause i do things (especially homework) just too slowly. I'd usually watch youtube instead of coming here cause I'm just... plain lazy. Yeah.

Will be posting once in a blue moon. Goodnight. :D

Da lang, da lang, dalang dalang dalang dalang DALANG! :)

2010-01-09T17:34:00.000+08:00

Hey nerds and geeks,

The first week of school is over. Life in secondary three was kinda of... I seriously can't possibly think of a good word to describe yet it ain't that typical/average. But I guess I'll get used to it soon.

I started maths tuition yesterday. Took mrt with Xunlin to go to marymount. Xunlin say's it's good to be studying in marymount cause there's little people there.

The tuition is stressful alright cause my brain works so damn slowly. Heh. And I didn't even have time to eat sweets. Haha. Ultimate goal : To eat sweets in class. ( which means being able to cope. LOL. )

And this is the cat that accompanied me throughout my time in malaysia. Cute. :) If you look carefully at the right corner, you'd see my hand there, her fur is super smooth, but she ain't very clean. :o

I've got not very much to say. bye. :B

New year. :)

2010-01-06T22:43:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone, quick post here.

Yeah, happy new year and I spent it in malaysia. Boring and was not even counting down went to sleep like at 8. Haha. First day of school, new class. The class has nobody I really do know very well, but I'll get used to being more of a loner. :O The timetable has been changed and I keep forgetting the fact that I've eaten lunch. Heh. The lunch idea is stupid lah, forcing me to eat lunch in school everyday. :( I really got to be sleeping now. I'm afraid that I can't wake up early enough, would probably update in a few days time to give more details instead of such a rush. :)

Bye everyone.

Christmas? :)

2009-12-25T13:06:00.000+08:00

I remember crying when i was 3 because my neighbor dressed up as santa on the christmas party. Haha!

Merry Christmas. :)

This year's christmas came so fast. And yes, i was afraid of that big and hairy man when I was younger. I also remember one time, I stayed up till mid night just to prove to my friend that santa was just a liar with a cotton made tummy. But it's all when I was young lah. Christmas wasn't so much on santa claus anymore. :p This year, I didn't get a single merry christmas at all though, I didn't see much decorations and no music played too. That's probably why i can't feel the festive mood at all. Shall stay home reading then. Haha.

HOT.

2009-12-22T19:40:00.000+08:00

For my 知音 Twinny! Hehehe.

I'm gonna be saving up for him! Concert and maybe album! :D

SHUAI-SHUAI-SHUAI-SHUAI-SHUAI!

Oh yah, back to my life. I've been not online for long cause my computer got confiscated. LOL. Been reading and going to dance practice while i couldn't go online. I've also been trying to diet HARD. It's a whole new different thing this time. ( Yes, I fail all my dieting plans. ): ) I've been eating fruits as dinner over a period of time. This is the first time I ate lunch that only consisted of vegetables and bread. I even went to get 'special K' . ( If you watch TV, you'll get what i mean. ) And it's all because i dug out all the clothes i cannot wear and in a sense it motivated me. :D I'm also going to run but I do hope i don't fail again cause running really makes me want to die. x.x

I've also went to see CO + FD concert that day. Me and xunlin can't really appreciate music. Haha. But FD is so cool. Their formation is amazing. Got wave some more! CO is as usually nice too! :D

that's all! bye! :B

Show me how.

2009-12-14T18:38:00.000+08:00

He's perfect. ;) This song is so true indeed.

Hello. Life's been normal recently. Went for CCA yesterday and I took a taxi there cause it's supposed to be 1.45 instead of 3. The driver dosen't know where CCHY is, was very very late.

I will will will go and see him (^) if he comes to singapore alright. I want to go and see his concert with xunlin! :)

3D'10

2009-11-23T19:31:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone, if you're in 3D'10 then congrats lah, we're gonna be classmates! LOL. Actually there's not much to be happy about. heh. But nevertheless, life goes on. Yeah. ;)

Went out on myself these two days since I'm bored till I almost died and nobody want to accompany me. :O I bought tons of stuffs, boredom is turning me into a shopaholic. Oh no. What's more, I buy all stuffs I don't need that much but wants it a lot. haha. I got a haircut too, I want it to grow long faster cause I've got spiky hair standing like crazy cause I asked the person to make my hair less (sounds so wrong. haha.) then turns into porcupine. yikes. So now I look like some ah lian. -.- I hope it'll grow out soon so that my new teacher won't think of me as some ah lian, unless Mr Yip teaches D loh.

Yeah, short posts are my specialties. I'm thinking about putting a counter and then considering to close my blog. Cause I feel so bored talking to myself. D:

heart-attack!

2009-11-20T18:39:00.000+08:00

Bring me along.

Hello, here to sum up the little day of mine. Apparently, the school hasn't updated which class are we're going to, great thing I didn't went to school like an idiot. Phew. I've been at home, doing stuffs and all. (e.g.. karaoke singing sessions in the bathroom, durian tasting program in the kitchen.) So yeah, I'm this "interesting". I ate longan today and it some how gave me a burning sensation while eating one of it, and it went painful like mad. Spat it out immediately and went to brush my teeth. I suspect that it's a bug or something that attempted to bite me as it was in the gross longan. Disgusting or gross? Longan was one of my favorite fruits, but not anymore. Doubt I'll eat another in years. Oh yeah, played HEART ATTACK with amily ( Family - F. Oh my god, how much more corny can I get! ) So yups, had a great time. Random, but fun! Hehs. Pretty much a normal day for me. And I've been sleeping really late and waking up really late too. Sleeping in the morning and waking up in the afternoon. I've gotta change that. It's bad for health. But gahh, I bet I wouldn't care when I'm watching dramas online.

Byebye! ^-^

Half a baby.

2009-11-17T18:26:00.000+08:00

No, you wouldn't understand it. It's just things that I wanna tell yet I can't.

I dreamt of something strange last night, I was in a murderous horror movie. I sliced a baby into half. Freaked out or not? No, I did not wake up in cold sweat or whatever. But I somehow related it to certain things that had happened recently. Bad omen.

Too many things have happened at home recently, it exploded I guess. I'm really worried now. It seems like I'm the only one noticing. Can't they see what's happening? I've got a feeling, it's gonna break like the poor baby. Oh please don't.

It's stupid that I'm crying now, I bet you don't know what's happening. I want it back to the way it was, I've never sensed fear this close before. I'd rather it break into a great fight then having to see it stay this way.

I won't know what to do if that day comes, I can't do a thing at all. All I ever wanted now is to go off to somewhere where there's only peace. Where I can play that music and burst my ears. Where my eyes would only see what's white. Where I wouldn't see any withered roses, and metal keychains would never fall off that bag. And where babies would never be broken in half...

撐腰 ;)

2009-11-12T21:39:00.000+08:00

Hello! I've been staying up late these days, dark rings would form up soon. Tomorrow's gonna be my mum's birthday. I'm responsible for lunch and dinner. LOL.

For the next one month, I would be staying at home to be my zhai2 nv3/ fu2 nv3 cause there's no chingay practice and I doubt anyone would ask me out. So just let die in my little world. ( YAY MAN, YAY. ) I've been playing crazy cabbie, it's fun. Who really cares that others thinks it's lame, since I don't have a life in the first place. Haha.

I think I'll go and turn into some sort of zi4 bi4 person in sec 3 ( which I already am ) but most probably worse. I wonder who would be in the same class as me? I wish I won't die there. I suck at making the move to know someone else. Oh no, I'd probably be partnering myself. ( The thought of it sucks throughly. ) Okay, I should just stop traumatizing myself and get on with life.

I'm having a slight headache now, I getting really old. I even have an O'che ( I forgot what's it's called in english. Yes, I almost failed my english too. ) on my knee due to and extremely retarded and random twirl I did at home.

But I guess staying at home isn't that bad, I get to save money to buy stuffs! That would be cool, even if it's just peanuts to some of you. But that would allow me to buy some stuffs that I had wanted to have since a million years ago. Yay.

Probably I should just go and buy Maths tutor for sec 3 and attempt to do the algebra parts during the holidays, but would I do that? I really doubt a huge part of the words I say now, so let's just say "NO" first. Doing it would then be a bonus instead of failing myself once again. ( Yeah, I'm such a loser. ) :J

I guess I'm a pretty good listener, cause I suck at talking.

OUCH.

2009-11-10T18:03:00.001+08:00

This show is super cute. (LOVE SHOW LUO! <3)

YOYOYO. Holidays hadn't felt anything like it cause I still had to wake up early to go school for chingay for the these two days. ( I totally love/miss chinese dance's JI-BEN-GONG + HAO-NA-LAO-SHI ! T.T) Yup, frankly speaking I wouldn't do it if not for the CIP hours cause there's no pride involved alright. ( Everybody is realistic okay, it's just on different terms. :p) Ohh, my room is cleaned now! YAY. Okay fine, if my mother hadn't became angry and hadn't threatened to clear it for me, I wouldn't have done it this fast. ( My mother's 'clear' = THROW EVERYTHING. >.<) She got extremely mad okay, hadn't talked to me still until now she's only still talking when only necessarily. -,-

And I sorta half decided not togo and work anymore. Yeah, I a timid person. Hadn't dare to walk in to ask for job.

F. A. I. L. I wonder where would my time go during the holidays today. hehe. I'd most probably just waste my time down the drain. Oh no, here I go again.

Many have been doing dedications to the class. Those people are ultra nice, okay. :D I've thought of doing it too, but I most probably get stuck/ seem insincere. Sorry yah, just know that I love you people. :>

P.S. Mint Coffee Ice Blended is the new LOVE! ;D

My heart hurts too much when I see someone else in your heart, no longer believing it when you said that you would love me more than anyone else in the world. I'm not asking you to do anything at all. None in fact. But Laopo, this still hurts okay. OUCH. ( In a sense I want you to see this. But in another, I don't need you to bother at all. )

I'm so calm, why don't you believe?

2009-11-01T21:00:00.000+08:00

Watching 'Secret' on channel U now. I've watched I for many times already though, but it's still nice. :) And it's the only time I think Jay Chou looks shuai. :p Tomorrow is back to school day. and we'll be studying once again. But I bet many are not in the mood to study. So am I. :p Let's just see what happens tomorrow! :D

>.<

2009-10-31T20:36:00.000+08:00

Hello, I wanna get a holiday job. any suggestions? Cause... I need money. Not desperately, but I just don't really want to linger around the house doing nothing when I can be out there earning some pay. :)

It's another saturday that is no doubt wasted. I lied on the bed today, and I realised that I'm somebody who's really not with the class. I read the posts on other classmate's blog, then I read my own. Had such a huge urge to delete it, I didn't tho cause that would still be what I had thought whether or not is it the same as what I'm feeling inside now. They were sentimental, sad and had always thought of the class as united, bonded. Why hadn't I felt the same? Where have I been these whole two years if such a strong bond could be built? My goodness, I feel so screwed. Was it because I had been too silent? But obviously my silence in class hadn't paid off, my results were screwed too. Where have I been, seriously. This invisibility is swallowing me, that wasn't supposed to be me. What. Am. I?

the "last day" :)

2009-10-30T21:22:00.000+08:00

Look at how everyone changes! ;p

I look super funny here cause I don't know why am I smiling at the window and everyone has such different expressions! haha. :D

Today was supposed to be the last day of school, but because of the bridging programme, we would still be coming back to school. Hey everyone, time flies so fast. two years have gone by and I have already been in the class for two years. I have a confession today, it would be about my perception of the class over such a period of time. :)

Today was obviously an emotional day for some of the 2D people. People shed tears, cried for the seperation of the class. I, didn't. Jiaxian called me cold-blooded for around 3-4 times today. I had to say that I wasn't very much bothered by having to be seperated from the class. In other words, I think that my attachment to the class was not very strong. Did you guys know that I used to hate the class, how unorganised it was, how everyone throws work onto individuals and claims credit for themselves. But until around some time this year, I started to think. To think about all the friends in the class, how all of them were such nice people. I found that I had actually loved alot of them! I started to accept how vulgarities flew all over the classroom, the noise and the shouts. I must say that I still don't love the class as a whole, but I would continue loving every one as individuals. :D Would be missing everyone of them that would not be in the same class as me next year (majority, LOL.) ! >.<,

Promise to say hello when we meet next time okay, ^-^!

So that's my life, and you shall get out of it.

2009-10-26T21:01:00.000+08:00

We are all under the same beautiful sky,

School is normal today, went to the LT for one whole day for talks and movie screening. :) The talks are as usual NOT INTERESTING. haha. Movie screening was okay lah. Watched Ice Age 2, I was laughing like crazy at the start. Okay fine, I admit that I was very lame. hohos. C'mon, the squirrel like animal was so cute when he was trying to get the acorn! hahaha. YELAOSHI was angry today cause somebody rubbed off a strip of the level positions he had written on the board. So bad of the person, but I bet that person might be just random or thinks that yelaoshi won't get mad. ;p MEIXIN walked home with me after school! It's like WOW cause it's like the first time she walked home with me after like 8 months! :D

Coraline.

2009-10-25T13:26:00.000+08:00

Watched Coraline with the fellow above ^ yesterday. LOL. Xunlin was supposed to be wearing the 3D glasses lah, but it was too dark and if i hadn't attempted to brighten the picture, nothing can be seen. ( Yes, I did brighten it up. :) ) Fine, but that would explain such bad quality of the picture right? After all, my phone only has a pathetic 2.0 megapixel. But oh wells, it looks artistic right? I even gave it a light shade of blue. haha. okay, back to the movie. It was nice, not very but still nice. It was kinda funny when I watched it cause i already read the story line, maybe that's why it wasn't that much enjoyable for me. hohos, won't do it again. Oh yeah, there was this one part which was really super surprising. ;p

See what I mean? Miss forcible in her reenactment of the "Birth of Venus". LOL. You won't want to see the picture any bigger on my blog. See it in the theatre instead. hahs. :)

everytime, there's an empty promise to myself.

2009-10-24T00:05:00.000+08:00

Yo! LOL. It seems kinda late to update that i confirm can promote already anyway. But yeah, I confirm get promoted! :D I think I SHOULD be happy, considering that I failed two subjects instead of four. I still remember Mr Yip coming to me during assembly and told me to do something about my maths and science during the holidays. watching coraline in 3D with NXL twinny tomorrow. YAY! And by the way, my dumb macbook is finally receiving files from my phone after a million tries, I shall perservere in my studies just like that! ;p Finally updating on the science center trip with LAOPO and qixuan. :p Sorry for the bad picture quality lah. -.-

I find that when i posts, i like to jump to different topics. but nevermind. :) byebye.

so very horrible.

2009-10-21T21:29:00.000+08:00

I feel so horrible now. My results and all the other stuffs. Basically, my mind is filled about things of promotion now, my stomach seems to be in a weird shape. The promotion is perhaps nothing to most of you guys, but it's extremely important to me. Looking at my results, I have no idea how to say or what to do. I have nothing i can do but to wait for it. My life is so screwed. I've don't what I think I could and should do before the exams, so maybe I hadn't done enough? I'm really doubting my IQ nowadays. HELP, CAN ANYONE HEAR ME?

oh no.

2009-10-20T21:25:00.000+08:00

hey guys,

so long since i was posting.

i didn't even update that the exams were long over.

and school's ending in a few week's time!

Y-A-Y!

so basically I'd either stay in sec 2 or go to 3D,

aka: dreams crushed. -.-

cause my results are BOOMZ. D:

but I'm positive and all and will still be happy de lah.

so no need worry.

oh yah, i went to quite some places and all,

snow city, science centre and also went to catch movies.

so I'm bankrupt and super poor. :(

but i'll save and go on diet at the same time! LOL.

oh yah, basically the movie i went to watch was...

MEATBALLS.

it's cute alright.

especially...

the cute cute cameraman and former doctor, pilot and comedian!

LOL.

okay lah, kinda bored and lazy luh.

bye. :B

HARD. real hard.

2009-10-11T20:05:00.000+08:00

i've been studying all-day-long.

so i'd be so so disappointed if i'd drop my jaws at tomorrow's paper.

but i've promised not to cry, after all i've done all that i can,

so no matter WHAT.

i would celebrate and party tomorrow for examinations are over.

yay man, yay.

i know i kinda sound not that excited but who can get any more excited after a day of science?

haha.

so yupps, i'd probably go enjoy myself for an hour or so before i get back to science.

oh yah, by the way, kailin's gonna go for tuition for the third try in her life!
she have went to mavis ( which sucked cause the teacher made her cry due to over stress. :o)
and had home tuition ( which actually was awkward cause the teacher was a guy and he got all the answers of my worksheet wrong. -,-)
so yeah, i'm gonna give it another try since mum said yes. :D

The rainbow's the most colourful after a big RAIN.

2009-10-09T22:58:00.000+08:00

reasons for crying in class again?

maths loh.

30 marks is gone lah.

thank you for those who comforted me.

and meixin for always being so comforting despite knowing that she don't know how to.

but i doubt she'll see this. cause she doesn't read my blog.

went to CHANGI AIRPORT de T2, T3 today!

it's a conducive environment okay, cause it's quiet and huge.

xunlin taught me science and all, really relieved me from a lot of depression.\

she also claims that adding smileys to note would work.

but i'll always put the sian face --> -,- LOL.

shit man, mum and dajie is cursing me for being stupid by not doing the more marks qns first, making me feel like crying again.

but whatever lah, like i heck care. cause it's over already.

But if I really that bad, i really don't need anymore acknowledgement, i need encouragement.

don't they understand?

I'm waiting for that rainbow to come out alright, I'll be patient. :)

BOMB!

2009-10-04T09:52:00.000+08:00

hey everyone!

i'm studying okay.

just that i'm taking a break in the morning.

i finished literature.

and there is still... A LONG WAY TO GO.

haha, so yups. do hope i get 20th in class.

okay lah, it's not ALL for the money.

but still. a little extra would be such a great help to me.

i've studied some chapters for geography.

hopefully my hard work for trying to stay interested (aka. paying attention) in geography for this year will let me do well.

but my memory's really failing me.

oh yah, i promise to study hard to get into 3F!

cause i don't want to take bio cause i wouldn't dare to cut up the frog when the frog is:

1) alive

2)heart's still beating

3)perhaps is still breathing

4) having the skin not attached to it's muscles

5) looks like XUNLIN! yucks.

and cartooned frogs are really cute okay,

i won't want to think of cutting them up.

so jiayous!

I WANNA GET INTO THAT PHYSICS-LEARNING-ANTI-FROGGY-CUTTING-CLASS, 3F! <3

okay lah, i go relax before my intensive learning liao!

;D goodluck.

D YI BAN!

2009-09-28T17:44:00.000+08:00

I'm chionging d&t now. >.<

so i probably shouldn't be posting.

okay then. BYEEE!

LOL.

I'm okay.

2009-09-26T19:24:00.000+08:00

HEYY!

i am really fine now.

It's just that I am feeling so suckish, lonely, pissed and exams are coming in like... NO TIME.

great isn't it?

and yah, i have no idea how should i study or whatsoever.

my heart have flown to outer space.

and i'll probably need a satellite to find it.

help me NASA?

okay, instead of ranting everytime.

i'll just say something else.

yesterday was mid autumn festival.

chinese dancers performed.

really cool.

siqing, jiayi and i was talking before the performance and she said i looked like paikia. LOL.

then had performance and then went home alone.

kinda scary lah.

took really really long to reach home.

i didn't dare to walk the back gate there so i ended up walking one big round and walked to bus stop. (10-15 mins)

waited for bus for super long (15-20 mins)

took bus (25 mins)

waited for bus cause lazy to walk. (25-30 mins!!!)

so yup i took around 1.30 hours to get home.

super sian. cause i did nothing so i daydreamed at night.

LOL.

okay, off i go.

STUDIES. D:

2009-09-21T08:58:00.000+08:00

studied a little yesterday, i seriously can't do it at home.

and i certainly don't want to go out and study alone cause it's awkward.

fine, but since the 'LONG' weekend is ending already, i don't have to worry about it until later.

I really think that the students today is studying WAYYYY TO MUCH.

everyone knows right? students are not required to learn science until P3.

but guess what? my sister in P1 is talking about the insects with all their body parts and all.

(eg. thorax, abdomen...)

CRAZY OR NOT. and they put this into a show and tell and says that it's ENGLISH.

isn't THIS learning of science already?

and she is reading english books that is sooooo chim for a kid her age.

i don't think i could read THAT when I'm in P1 loh.

my mum was saying that she was so much better than us.

cause she says that it's so much easier in the past.

CHILDHOOD DEPRIVATION.

fine, I'm overreacting.

since my P1 is over, i doesn't really matters already. hah.

kay then byebye! <3

DISCO NIGHT!

2009-09-19T00:07:00.000+08:00

HEYHEYHEY! i cannot sleeep tonight lah.

cause i slept for 7 hours just now. :p

i went BOMB! then fell asleep luh.

anyways, since NXL dosen't like her picture,

i changed to this!

i removed pimples on our faces and enlarged eyes madly.

i know it looks akward. LOL. ( the below one is nicer. -,-)

NG XUNLIN LOVES CHUN KAILIN! (you know you do love me xp)

okay, i think i need to go do... nothing.

BYE! XD.

TA-DA!

2009-09-15T20:11:00.000+08:00

(L) !

This post is dedicated to my dear dear twinny XUNLIN!

ohh yah and as requested,

"Xunlin is a DUMBASS!" hohos.

you better tag/write essays on my tagboard hor i tell ya.

anyways, back to my day.

today is tuesday, and i still had to wake up early to get to school for Merchant of Venice rehersal.

super tired lah.

Feel so stupid in the skit =.=

but oh wells, IT'S OVERRRRR.

but it's cool. xD

then got dance.

sat there.

LOL.

went to eat chwee kueh with xunlin after that.

when we wanted to go home, my leg 'ma2bi4'

and i fell like shitttt. >.<

she laughed like siao.

-3-

kay off to do homework!

new email! <3

2009-09-12T11:58:00.000+08:00

HEYY PEOPLE!
you know right, after multiple attempts to change email add for so long, i realized that i had it all along! :O
i made it when i was nine -.- (that's like 5 years ago alright.)
really happy lah.
so add me on msn okays.
kailinchun@hotmail.com !
so happy that i can finally change that dumb email of mine.

ps: i lost my job, so i'm really gonna be poor. but i will survive! xD

2009-09-09T13:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday had dance, basically was doing nothing to do for around 4 hours and we sat in the corner to chat.
munyeeng motivated me to go to the library!
cause she was reading when we were doing nothing. (not 2nd in class for nothing!)
so i went to the library and spent around 1 hour looking for books after dance.
saw two groups of girls sitting in the corner of the library.
let's put it this way,
girls 'A' and girls 'B'
girls 'A' was laughing loudly and floods the place with vulgarities. -.- soon, they seemed to be bored and imitated every single word girls 'B' said. one of girls 'B' was complaining to her friend and was secretly scolding vulgarities at them. girls 'A' left.
I thought it was rather funny lah. but they are really very irritating. library is so not a good environment to study. LOL.
Then i borrowed three books and went home to read.
I read one after another! and i finished at 3 o'clock today!
so proud of myself. but actually the tow english books i borrowed aren't very nice. but i cried my eyes out when i read the chinese one, it's really really touching and nice.
i'm going to go back soon alright. XD
today was just another day lah so not much to talk about.
bye then.

Rants.

2009-09-04T21:24:00.000+08:00

I've sept for around four hours i guess.
but I'm still kinda sleepy.
can't believe that I'm getting sick even the start of the holidays!
I feel so stressed already.
end of year examinations are coming so freaking fast and i have no idea how to study for it.
my homework looks like a mountain.
and I'm really coughing like crazy already.
I'm afraid that I'll sleep my holidays away like how I did the last time.
EXAMs. now it sounds so offensive already.
the timetable have been give to us, that's indeed very efficient.
I want it to pass fast but it's really coming too soon.
I need to start doing maths tutor and ace-learning already.
"buck up!"
but I seriously have no idea how many times I've said that already.
I'm starting to lose faith in my own words.
how many empty promises have i made to myself?
the worst is that I don't even play enough when I'm not doing any homework.
well, I really just stare blankly into nowhere.
oh no.

she's really pissing me off.
stop acting like you're so nice and cute.
the sight of you makes me nauseous.
why don't you just get out of the way?
can't you see that it's not the face that I'm hating?
IT'S YOU.
stop it already, I still have to live with you for another decade.
why can't you just leave me alone.

memories are very very important to me.
I'm somebody who thinks about the past a lot.
I realize I've done so much stuffs that is enough to make me hate myself.
what am i doing?
be more sensitive already.

goodbye, my worries.
as I pen you down,
I'm off to find a solution.
I'll be alright.

itch.

2009-09-01T12:37:00.000+08:00

I have rashes on my tummy now.
so irritated.
mummy says i would need to 'cool' myself by drinking more herbal tea.
-,-
i hope it'll go out soon.
ohyah.
it's teachers day today!
I <3 my teachers.
hmm, twitter seems to hate me cause i cant post.
and i can't twitter with my phone cause it's prepaid.
i don't get it! my phone can even surf the net and cost me so much.
but oh wells, save money uhh.
went to primary school yesterday.
everything became so miniature. haha.
stupid lah, i found out that chenlaoshi cannot meet us cause she's teaching my sister.
i miss her.
picture shall be post next time or never, cause i'm really very lazy.
xp

BINGO!

2009-08-29T05:15:00.000+08:00

Just came back from school.
really tired already.
ms lau had to attend to cca stuffs so she did not come for lessons today.
ms tay came to relief us, everyone was saying that she looked like hueeru! :p
then me and meixin was very bored so we decided to play BINGO!
and we played for super long.
we played 12 rounds!
and i won all of it!
meixin was really amazing lah, how to lose 12 times hor? (just kidding lah.)
played hangman after that and went home by myself.
monday will be teachers day, i guess i would be going back to WRPS?
laopo says she don't wanna go. D:
eeyer, but there's wingyan! <3
i don't really know what would i do even if i went back, and i bet teachers don't even remember me by now. (LOL!)
so i guess there's really not much of a point.
but going back should be a nice feeling. (though the school is so freaky after they changed how nice it was. stupid orange coloured building.)
nevertheless, wingyan and i should be going out after that so it's okay. XD
okay, i'll post next time.
;D
P.S. xinting don't stress! cheer up okay. cause there's alway a bright side. (eg. like how i alway score so much lower than you. (so paiseh!) )
be happy okayy! <3

Typicality.

2009-08-24T19:24:00.000+08:00

cutecute kerori! (i think that chicken beside is cute too!)

It's another normal and typical monday.

i feel kind of happy. yet not very.

looking forward to the weekends every monday (LOL!)

it's always like that yeah.

today is gwendeline's birthday.

they bought a cake for her.

so cool.

meixin and i took turns to feed me, herself and xinting .

haha.

so tired already.

-,-

2009-08-23T11:53:00.000+08:00

hello!

today is another day.

i wish i could go and buy my shoes soon.

i'm in a financial crisis, :o

i want new white shoes lah.

mine got holes already.

and i stepped on a cockroach once.

so off it goes.

i've been trying to change my blogskin but i simply cannot download the html code, shall try later. bye then. <3

(dumb macbook just don't seem to cooperate, -3-)

not very 'common'

2009-08-22T12:42:00.000+08:00

today is the first weekend since common test.

i obviously did not do very well for my common test lah.

super scared at the thought of my science and english examinations.

i cannot believe that my best subject so far is maths.

but after all, almost everyone got A1.

i won in both bets with meixin, yay.

she was blabbering about how bad she has done for chinese.

then she said if she get A2 or above, she's gonna give me $1

and she got A1 while i got A2. -,- (irritating hor. LOL. but i get the money anyway.)

then, during maths. she say she did very badly.

i was feeling okay, cause i think among all, maths is considered as the easiest.

then i bet with her, if she gets below 30, i'll give her $2.

and obviously she didn't get it lah.

we both got 36/40 <3!

but i super 'xin tong' cause i made all the stupid mistakes! T.T

i checked the paper twice okay!

and i calculated everything once again when i finished! D:

kaijun got full marks and failed to bang the wall.

everytime like that one, say very hard and then get very high. :x

i wish i am capable of pissing others off too.

LOL.

ps:

i got 18/30 for literature.

really very bad. though i passed.

help! i already failed my history really badly and i cannot do anything to help it.

please don't do this to me.

My deardear brain, will you please wake up?

if not, you'll probably be called a lazy pig by mrs ng once again.

and no one will ever see how hard you've worked.

Tired. but pressing on.

2009-08-17T18:58:00.000+08:00

hellohello.
we had maths and english common test today.
maths was okay lah.
at least i finished it.
not trying to have high hopes of myself cause i'm afraid i'll be so disappointed when the results come back.
english was total crap, i don't even think about doing well.
just let me pass it please. >.<
there's so many more tests coming up.
but seriously lah, i' really don't think i've been working hard enough.
but thinking of studying really makes me wanna sleep. :O
fine, i shall go study hard! ;D
good luck people!

2009-08-13T17:15:00.000+08:00

YAY.

i feel so dead now cause common test is so near.

i wish i would do better for my maths this time.

well, at least i've been passing my maths test.

bye then.

jiayous.

2009-08-10T18:55:00.000+08:00

I really have a problem with blogger. Everything isn't in the right place when i post. The words are flying all over =.=

Bye then.

good morning!

2009-07-13T20:18:00.000+08:00

I love my hippo!

hellos, today went to tampanies to collect wingyan's bag,

after that we went to buy earrings :D

then went to eat ice cream and then went home for long bus ride.

i was counting the number of red cars passing by the windows.

then LAOPO joined in.

we counted till 101 and then gave up.

wingyan was sleeping. (cute de lah, she was shaking here and there!)

after counting and looking at the moving cars, me and laopo was EXTREMELY DIZZY . :O

so after the ride i felt really sick loh.

but after a rest it was all okay de.

okayokay, i shall be off to do some reading luh.

the sun.

2009-07-05T20:06:00.000+08:00

this was taken when i was at bintan! (that thing on my hand was a coral :D)

yeahyeah. i need to lose weight lah.

anyway, i've neglected my blog really long. but since nobody's reading, i guess i can just post for the sake of pleasure whenever i feel like it. haha.

okayokay.

i no mood to post anymore :p (ultra lazy!)

goodbye! <3

happy.

2009-06-13T20:46:00.000+08:00

WENT OUT WITH XUNLIN TODAY! ;D
she came over to my house for awhile.
then we went out.
we took bus to woodlands mrt intending to go to lot 1 at first.
ended up we took the wrong train =.=
so we went back to causeway point cause there was not enough time.
LOL. end up i spent really little while she spent alot when i was the one who asked her to accompany me.
i bought my handphone strap. (RED!)
and a $4 shirt. (LOL!)
happy day. :D

2009-06-10T23:16:00.000+08:00

this morning went to do chinese project at meixin's house.
waited at her door for around 10 mins.
sweating like mad.
and i pressed on the bell for at least 30 times already.
gee, i thought i was going to die at her door loh. haha.
then i went home and did nothing.
LOL.

xihuanjiuhao.

2009-06-06T20:11:00.000+08:00

yikes! was reading other people's blogs when i suddenly realised how unfruitful my holiday was.
what have i been doing today?
nothing. well, i slept afternoon nap.
for three and a half hours?
LOL. right?

i wish i could get more motivation.
motivation to go finish up homework,
go swimming or running,
or at least not sleep whenever i'm bored.

i've got scratches on my nose.
caused by a dumb mistake of mine.
i forgot to take of me and LAOPO's couple ring.
i wore it while i slept. (how stupid can i get!?)
since it was in a puzzle form, it had sharp ends.
my sister said i look like i went to climb a mountain or something.
a reason for me not to go out these few days.

i've lost interest in facebook already. :x
going there all the time bores me.
i feel like cutting my hair.
but no, not gonna do it.
xunlin was showing off how her hair is longer than mine that day.
so i'm gonna have waistline long hair.

the missing piece in me.

2009-06-04T18:59:00.001+08:00

opps! i'm becoming one of those crazy-for-leeminho fans already.

damn shuai. ahaha.

i'm having ultra good mood today.

nono, not ultra even more!

something like... Supercalifragilisticexpialidociously HAPPY!

cause you know what???

i'm GONNA GET TO SEE A REAL BEACH!

HAHAHAHA.

in bintan! and i'm gonna live in a great big villa.

and hopefully get a good shine!

can you imagine?

TO BE ABLE TO SEE... THIS!

mummy says the beach really damn nice (they abandoned us and went there. LOL)

so i'm Supercalifragilisticexpialidociously excited.

muahahaha.

and i went out with laopo to watch monaters vs aliens in 3D.

okay loh. laopo thinks it's kinda too draggy in the middle.

i think my mood went 'whoosh' after my a&w exploded. D;

and we took neoprints!

so hard to find such machines nowadays.

haha. maybe get to upload our prints some other time.

and... trying to 'kiap' a doll from a machine is impossible.

don't bother trying luh. haha!

accomplishment.

2009-06-03T17:27:00.000+08:00

started my june workplan. muahaha.
ehh, going out tomorrow!
hahaha.
happy happy.
LOL.
suddenly so high.
okay! byebye!

bored.

2009-06-02T22:05:00.000+08:00

i'm really bored today so shall post double today.
he damn shuai lah. <3
currently using this as my wallpaper.
kept staring. hohos.
having difficulties to find ep 24 of boys over flowers. yikes.
still, i can continue the little fantasy of mine.
S-T-A-R-E-S. LOL

proud.

2009-06-02T21:15:00.000+08:00

haha! i am so proud of myself! ;D
cause i made this doll myself!
felts, cotton and 7hours!
although my sister keeps ranting about his forehead and long hands.
but don't you think it's cute?
and it's big enough to hug okay!!!
haha xp!

hot day.

2009-06-01T17:38:00.000+08:00

i went swimming today!
hahaha.
tommorrow i'll start my work schedule.
yay. LOL.
nothing much liao. haha.

one by one.

2009-05-29T22:19:00.000+08:00

JUNE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE! <3

and i shall make a list of stuffs to do so as to spend it more meaningfully.
haha.
how about a list of... 10?

no.1 : BUCK UP.
start doing homework and assesments whenever i'm tempted to sleep. and remember how traumatising it would be for mrs ng to nag at me if i don't do her stuffs. LOL.

no.2 : GO SWIMMING.
actually had wanted to go swimming a long long time ago. but always ended up being too tired and to sleep on the sofa instead. ( i just did that just now! haha! )

no.3 : GO WATCH A MOVIE (MONSTERS VS ALIENS)
it's been forever since i last stepped into the cinema. how pathetic. i'm so gonna watch this show in 3D lah. but i bet i'll be screaming like siao. :O

no.4 : GET A HANDPHONE (DURING GSS!)
i should really go buy one. daddy's gonna subsidise me for teeny weeny bit as my birthday present in advance. aye, better than nothing. :) at least there's a sale! :D

no.5 : GO TO THE BEACH.
i don't know if i would really do this but i really wish i could. yeah yeah, singapore's beaches are fake. how sad. somebody wants to go overseas to see a real beach with me? :p

no.6 : GO AND BORROW BOOKS.
my english is really bad. and my vocabulary is just as 'big' as my social circle. (my social circle? this big --> o .LOL) so yupps. i'm gonna read!

no.7 : WATCH DRAMA.
whatever lah. i know some people think boys over flowers is lame. nevermind... they're just jealous. haha. i'm going to watch it! :D

no.8 : SAVE MONEY.
save for all sorts of craves! and work hard for end of year examinations too! i'm going to study till my brians burst and get top 20 in class! cause basically my november/ december holidays are counting on it. haha.

no.9 : PLAN FOR WHAT TO EAT ON MY BIRTHDAY! LOL.
mummy keeps asking me to think of how to celebrate my birthday. i haven't thought of it. but i'm confirm going to think of what to eat first! hahaha.

no. 10 : BE HAPPY.
stop being such a burden to others and stop thinking about dumb stuffs. be extra happy.
:D !

okay. hopefully i'll fufill it all! <3

junpyo.

2009-05-26T19:37:00.001+08:00

we had debating classes today.
okay loh. not very fun.
not very enthu.
had CCA after school! <3 they presented flowers and a big big card to haona laoshi. her face turned red. ahaha. then when we were walking home. i was singing the nobody song. xunlin got influenced. haha. i want everyone, everyone but you! LOL. ps: that day when xunlin and i went out, she said she likes BIG BIRD. think straight! kay fine, i'm kinda polluted. :O

i've wanted to let her go. things really didn't turn out the same way. and now i really don't know what i will do. in fact, what should i do. i really cannot comfort anyone. i really need to learn how. all i did was to act as if i didn't know anything. i just made my mind up on telling her i'm letting her go. and the next day, i was struck by her words. now, i'm... LOST.

CHUNKAILIN IS ONE STRONG GIRL!

2009-05-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

kinda moody after i got my history results.
real sad lah.
monica said something very nice though:
" wo hai shi ai ni de. "
yupps! no matter how i get, those who truly love me will love me. ;D
became really pekcek when i did maths real slow and bad.
sort of became fed up at a point and raised my voice at meixin.
SORRY! opps.
then at one point we went to 2h to change marks.
wingyan and val showed me their tags.
super cute lah they.
then i was the last one to go back to classroom.
classroom was a mess. duh.
then MR OH came to our class to talk DA DAO LI to us.
LOL lah! let mr teo wait so long somemore.
he got fanclub leh! don't play play. haha.
then mr teo showed videos of him on tv.
damn funny!
me and meixin was LAUGHING LIKE MAD when his face appeared.
then there was a concert shown. mr teo went around telling people that he was the producer.
he came over to me and meixin and said:
" wo shi producer leh! bu rong yi de okay! "
yeahyeah. not easy lah. hahaha!
then went home after that.
SLEPT ~! i've been sleeping alot recently!
must compensate all the loss during exams!
then after 3 hours of sleep, i ate dinner and bathed and blah.
then i'm... HERE! kay that's lame.

LAUGH!
During a lesson, students were asked to read up on human rights.
The
next day, the teacher asked one of the students to stand up and answer his
question.
teacher: can you list 10 human rights?
student: ...
teacher: how about 5?
student: ...
teacher: (fustruated) fine, just one.
student: i have the rights to observe silence...

it's just temporary.

2009-05-19T18:32:00.000+08:00

I shall ignore the whole morning and skip to the afternoon!
I saw my LAOPO crying lah.
Her science is under her expectations.
CHEER UP! LOL. I know she okay one lah.
Haha.
She came to my house today and once again disturbed my APPLE MONSTER. -.-
Hohos.
And we cooked EGGS!
Haha. Her scrambled eggs are “so easy” as claimed by her, yet she made the egg flew out! ;D !how funny lah.
My ham and cheese ommelete was a success!
Is nice de loh! She said it was damn nice!
Muahaha.

Emo people don’t emo liao!
Life has ups and downs.
LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE!
I got bad results too. :O
So yup! Let’s all work hard like Cinderella! Yeah, kinda like the plot of Cinderella now.
Haha.
Okayokay. Off I go now!

Byes! Loves! <3

who says that results doesn't matter?

2009-05-18T20:30:00.000+08:00

results are coming back ONE BY ONE.
i was so traumatized today when mrs ng was giving out maths paper.
that i almost puked.
of course you feel so when the highest is 99 marks (!)
it'll look real bad when you fail while others are getting 90 over.
well i didn't fail and meixin was over the moon when she knew she got 74 marks.
i was in the happy for her yet JEALOUS. haha.
but it's good lah. cause i only get jealous of good people mah.
and hor. i suck in art lah.
to think that people think that i'm gifted for it! LOL.
and i failed my science lah.
don't wanna elaborate.
but still.
i believe things will only get better. ;D

cause i'll TRY to be half as hardworking as CINDERELLA.
hehs. <3

i dreamt of him that day! LOL.

i want nobody nobody, but you!

2009-05-16T00:02:00.000+08:00

i can't stop listening to this song. LOL.
anyway, i'm HAPPY TODAY!
because....
MID-YEAR EXAMINATIONS ARE OVER!
HAHAHAHA.
so glad.
but i totally hold no hopes at all.
nevermind.
and laopo came to my house today!
and koped my very very nice de ORGANIC butterhead.
so nice lah.
hahs.

down a concentration gradient.

2009-05-13T17:30:00.000+08:00

nothing much happened today.
i'm still revising for science!
SMASH, CASH COW, AOSH, AASH.
xunlin! i got remeber leh!
see? i just need time to digest.
hahahaha.
2 more to go! ;D

will history repeat itself? I HOPE... NOT.

2009-05-12T13:22:00.000+08:00

yikes. tomorrow will be history MYE.
hopefully my HISTORY of the previous history common test will not repeat itself. heh.
i revised you know.
so yupp. good luck to me eh?
hahs.
and i don't really understand why people like to discuss questions after exams yeah?
but i guess there are pros and cons doing it.
but most of the time it's demoralising for me. haha.

oh yah. wingyan, i am sooooooooooo not SACARSTIC on my thank you for last one leh.
hahs. okay lah. I AM SACARSTIC. just for once xp

9,999,999 TEARS TO GO <3

2009-05-11T14:38:00.000+08:00

i think that song's really cool.
how cute.

and yeap, my parents are back from m'sia.
and i've been sick for the weekend you know.
i think _______ passed it to me.
never had a good impression anyway.
LOL.
and to imagine i was running all over the place to get to ssc with xunlin that day <3
she spent $17 while i spent $3 can see how broke am i right?
but i lent her $7 loh. hahaha.

oh yah! i need to thank these people for being with me while i was running/crying around for my phone! hahs. :
LAOPO<3 for lending her phone for me to contact the dumb person who refused to return my phone. and for giving me her xiaoji book lah! (L)
WINGYAN and HUILIN for giving me coins to take bus home! or else i'd be spending my night at the mall!
JOEY and BRENDA for being there and telling me to calm down. ;D
_______ for giving me a gift of sickness yeah? -.-

oh yah, it's time i turned off my dumbdumb water tap you know?
PLUMBER NEEDED! anyone? haha. XD!
nah. not emo lah. just thought that i shouldn't be like this.
so dramatic leh.

THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE. YET.

2009-05-08T18:16:00.000+08:00

I LOST MY PHONE, WALLET AND THAT PHOTO.
i got dripped by shitty water from the sky.
and the best thing is?
i have to save up to get my own phone.
nice.
but that photo in my wallet is what hurts me most.
i've lost it FOREVER.

i'm DOOMED.

2009-05-05T19:08:00.000+08:00

I FORGOT TO THE THE ONLINE HISTORY QUIZ!
really gonna die this time.
ahh!!!
but today is a happy day.
o.o!

pulling my hair off. help.

2009-05-03T20:34:00.000+08:00

i'm getting really stressed nowadays.
i hate hate exams.
my life is sucked up by it.
it's not worth it.
but this world is just real.
you have to be realistic,
you want a good life, you need money.
you want money, you need a good job.
you want a good job, you freaking need to study well for exams.
face it, nobody wants to employ someone who's dumb.
but isn't it unfair for those not proficient in such areas.
not all wants to be a doctor, a mad scientist.
but singapore students have to face it.
that they'll die without studying.
and that they might not even be able to sweep the streets with just a mere PSLE cert.
this world is materialistic.
you can't buy happiness, but you'll never be happy without money.
i know that if i tolerate and not buy toys cars now, i can save to buy a real one in future.
but it's hard.
everyone knows the moral of the story, not many does it.
how do you explain it then?
going to school for knowledge?
crap.
i'm not saying that i don't learn, but don't you think that learning isn't happy anymore?
yes, i'm lazy.
so i deserve it.
you should just let me die off for being stupid.
fine.
i'm not emo.
i'm just upset.
life really still has many points for me to live on.
and you don't have to worry that i'll kill myself cause i don't wanna die yet.
or maybe.
YOU DON'T CARE.
NO ONE CARES.

extra-ordinary.

2009-05-02T18:49:00.000+08:00

my laptop is dying on me today -.-
every word i type out lags for one second before appearing :o
anyway, i find that i only tend to study in the night.
(random: i bath only in the night too :x)
so yup, i'm one lazy and dirty fellow during daytime.
how...nice.
i've been doing maths torture, opps, i mean maths tutor.
it's quite fun lah. :3
off i go!

MYE. HELP.

2009-04-30T21:07:00.000+08:00

today is the first day of MYE.
i didn't really screw up, but it's no better anyway.
KAY! MUST BE POSITIVE! LOL.
anyway, i went to northpoint with laopo, wingyan, audrey, joey, huilin, brenda and jinghui today.
we went to eat LJS.
then 17 again failed as we all didn't bring enough money.
so after we window shopped then we went home :)
me accompanied laopo to eat ice cream today :3
then when i went home i choinged maths tutor cause i felt guilty that i went out. hahs.
i finised direct and inverse proportion! <3

jiayou kailin! you can one! LOL.

reject me,
i can't forget it.
you had the power to give me the world.
but you didn't know, didn't want to.

it's a small world afterall.

2009-04-27T20:18:00.000+08:00

hello.
it's kope-people's-practicalexam-day!
i ate alot of stuff.
especially liked xunlin's curry lah.
not hot one.
nice with yangjin's rice XD
me wants to learn how to make it :)
and jinghui had an extra large and confirm genetically modified strawberry on her drink. LOL.
laopo's fried rice w/ salmon was nice lah.
but i didn't really like salmon anyway :/
brenda's baked rice is nice too.
guanhoe's fish was nice and somehow resembles the fish i ate during dinner yesterday.
hahs.
i like practical lah.
like to kope other people's food.
oh yah! did i tell you that xinting's prawn was real nice that day when our class had practical?
i only ate half -.-
eeching too.
kaichun ate one cause he never listen properly. LOL.
ryan ate two cause xinting ate his tofu!
and xinting offered one to edmund leh! biased one. xp
i dunno if he got eat lah.
but xinting was sad cause she wanted to leave for konglongs one.
then there was not many lah.
haha.
and laopo found alot of guys drinking mango tea.
she anyhow then claims that it is a reverse of green tea (fyi: green tea kills sperm, i don't think it's true. none of my business anyway. hahs.).
really ALOT drink can. i like to drink mango tea lah.
hope there's no side effect. haha.

went home with laopo today <3
along with jinghui and wingyan :)

byes.

kailin, please BUCK UP.

2009-04-26T17:36:00.000+08:00

I AM GONNA STUDY!
i need to. :/

tongue twister. twisted.

2009-04-24T19:44:00.000+08:00

wasn't really wanting to post today cause the gold post see liao very happy. xp

today was another day.
i forgot to bring my ingredients today. :x
i totally forgot it was practical EXAM.
yikes. starting to get too forgetful nowadays :/
but i'm glad mdm pan was understanding.
she's super nice! did not even frown!
i was too guai lah. (BHB!)

today had another afternoon.
mr neo was giving us supplementary lessons on sexual reproduction!
envious? LOL. no lah.
at first it was like 'porn' stuff.
not very obscene kind. LOL.
then when got people drink water then he start to make fun of them.
then after that it's really boring.
and he started scaring girls with his wife's delivery experience. LOL.
then it was sorta boring.
then i was scratching my legs like mad cause got 12 mosquito bites all over me. :O

and when i came home i slept on the floor. so tired! XD
i go watch tv luh! byes! <3

YAYA PAPAYAS.

2009-04-22T21:04:00.000+08:00

CHINESE DANCE CLINCHED THE GOLD AWARD! <3
i LOVE all of them lah.
whee.

i sorta stunned for awhile while yangjin and xunlin was happy like siao.
then when i hugged xunlin, i cried lah.
i thought of how our hard work was paid off.
then i go crazy.
i literally cried out loud on her shoulders.
then i sorta heard someone said what happened.
so paiseh.
then after that went to buy xunlin's shoes.
and went to mac for air con then went to take mrt.
we were chating and she made me miss the admiralty stop.
so i pei her go buy book which was out of stock. :O
then we chat and go home.
went home for ice-cream <3
oh no. getting fatter -.-

i am one proud girl.
xp

C'MON CHINESE DANCERS, SHOW 'EM WHAT WE'VE GOT.

2009-04-18T16:45:00.000+08:00

MY GOODNESS.
tomorrow and that's it.
my heart rushed up to my throat.
but after yesterday, we all knew how much we've loved each other.

xunlin: NO MATTER WHAT WE GET, GOLD WITH HONOURS, GOLD, SILVER, BRONZE, OR WORSE, A PIECE OR PAPER, I'LL ALWAY LOVE AND ENJOY ALL THE MOMENTS WE'VE BEEN TOGETHER FOR THIS. <3

sweet hor? she's too shy to say it. :D
GO CHINESE DANCERS!

meixin's unfitting bottle cap -.-
I NEED TO BUCK UP. :X
CROSS.CROSS.CROSS. AYE.
TICK.TICK.TICK. NOT MINE -.- (hongjin's)
MATh.B1EAh. (math.bleah.)
apparently, this world dosen't agrees with me. -3-
cats can really jump HIGH. (for the sake of sleeping that is.)

lala. off i go.

sweet tueday, wednesday and thursday. <3

2009-04-16T18:30:00.000+08:00

Tuesday; went to mac with LAOPO, wingyan, huilin and joey!

I like this picture!

huilin soo happy for i-dunno-what reason. hahs.

LAOPO zillian-ing.

still zillian-ing xp

geksai face -.-

severe case of constipation :x

BALDNESS! :x

tuesday or wednesday or thursday or mixed. (forgot when. xp)

random chair in mph.

A LONG TALK for chinese drama :O

LAOPO'S COMB. two broken teeth. (both broke by me :D)

meixin's pregnant!?

nah. she's fine and happy.

MY ORANGE FILE THAT SAYS ITS MINE. :P

WHEE! <3

2009-04-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

I <3 bluetooth and LAOPO lah!
finally got a way to upload pics from my phone. XD!

me and laopo long ago. when i still had my helmet hair!!! :O

zillian photos uploaded too!!! :) + :x

SCARY! YIKES! FLOP! SYF! <3

2009-04-13T18:52:00.000+08:00

OH MY GAWD.
SYF IS SO NEAR. IT'S 7DAYS MORE.

and yeap. my scary little day.
guess what?
MY PHONE'S ALARM RANG DURING ASSEMBLY TODAY! AHHHH!
I totally wanna die that time.
i can hear giggles lah!
cause my alarm is my sis calling me to wake up. (specially recorded. D:)
then i frantically kicked my bag. cause we're about to sing.
luckily it was not very loud lah.
so only those who heard were only those around me. (worse enough.)

and yah. that's like the scariest thing that happened to me today lah.
even worse then getting scolded loh.
SUPER PAISEH.
D: T.T

oh yah. saw mummy today and handed him the papers i helped him print. such a great daughter loh!
XD

kay lah. bye bye.

aimless. hahs.

2009-04-12T18:01:00.000+08:00

was sorta aimless all day today.
did my homework.
etc.
is playing restaurant city.
haha.
i guess there's not much.
and hor. wingyan does not look funny in the photo lah.
hohos. *evil smile*
whee~! off i go to escape my murder.

you all arh.
TAG ME IF GOT COME LAH.
you see i so kelian leh.
hahs.

SUMMARY. <3

2009-04-11T18:10:00.000+08:00

SPORTS DAY.LOL. jiaee and xunlin. xp

jiaee<3> left: shouting at??? right: act chio! hahahhahaha.LOL. we two share pocky. i painted my face and drew a paiseh face on cause i look... you know. hahs.xunlin merge into the monster face! but still cute lah.

LAST NIGHT.

moon was BIG. hahs.

RANDOM.

me and wingyan in chalet.... a long long time ago. XD

ZILLIAN.

PLUS. (requested)

TEO QIWEN A.K.A MY LAOPO IS DISGUSTING.

she go see all the pig's organ in the supermarket and showed it to me -.-

O.O

strange uncle on bus when going home with xunlin twinny. shan't elaborate. scary.

guy shouted and asked where am i going. and somehow start to run to me and stopped when i didn't reply him. (most probably he recognise wrong. LOL.)

extreme.

2009-04-02T19:39:00.000+08:00

in extreme foul mood now.
heck.
the sight of her is digusted.
and a stupid butterfly flew into the bathroom while i was bathing.
damn it.
i seemed funny just a moment ago.
but i'm in such foul mood, the whole thing sucked.
very.
daddy talking damn loud on phone now.
noise piss me off even more when i'm in such a mode.
shit.

souless

2009-04-02T17:00:00.000+08:00

i'm totally a walking corpse after school today.
i walked to bus stop.
when i was at the over head bridge, i saw ryan and edmund pointing in my direction.
then i when i came down ryan shouted "really is kailin leh!"
-,- stupid hor. hahs.
oh yah. today i the class was damn noisy during the going through of D.I.E.
damn pissed off. but some was really quiet.
you know...
aiya, nevermind.
back to the soul-less walking.
i was at the traffic light.
then i pressed the thingy.
for THREE times.
it wouldn't light up.
then i looked up, got 18 secs left.
then i saw this primary school boy stare at me. -.-
i must have been super retarded.
fine.
nothing much i guess.

ilove,OREO.(with toothpaste)

2009-04-01T21:48:00.000+08:00

happy aprils fool.

scene 1:
jiaee's mini oreo.
she gave it to me.
i gave her the 'o.O' look.
she kept laughing.
i ate it.
nothing.

scene 2:
someone throwed lizard.
land at aixin.
she jump and shouted.
class laughed.

scene 3:
maths.
mrs ng sit at junquan's place.
whole class turned behind(requested by mrs ng).
teachers and students who walked by gave the 'o.O' look.

scene 4:
jieying told me my badge never put properly.
i told her that she didn't manage to trick me.
she gave the '-.-' look and walked away.

scene 5:
chinese dance.
after one dance.
weikher gave cue.
we all squat and cover head/face with folded arms.
weikher asked haona laoshi look around and she did.
then we were like in the oven cause it's damn hot.
slacked awhile in that position.
then she realised she was tricked.
continued practice.

random:
saw 'cute' cars today.
two same and round cars.
i said the turqoise one nicer.
then xunlin found out mrs sim and mrs tan was siting in it.
then we saw mrs sim pointing to us.
me, yangjin, xunlin gave the ':O' look.

random x2:
my sister knows junhong.
same chinese lit class in jc.
she say she think he very big size.
then she knew his name cause junhong never hand in homework.

LOL.
my aprils fool.
my day.
hahs.

unwanted.

2009-03-30T18:32:00.000+08:00

not a very nice day.
but still typical.
the only thing interesting is that me and meixin both happened to want to go to queensway to buy stuff.
and she is on hunger strike. LOL.
no lah. she's just saving up.
i guess there's not much.
byes. :)

paint without 't'

2009-03-29T19:44:00.000+08:00

hello. :D
yesterday my family went to causeway point's pastamania to celebrate daddy's birthday.
it was really chaotic there. loads of people. really noisy.
food was still nice tho. hahs.
but the cheese of the baked rice isn't as...baked.
of course it was still nice but i just like it being MORE...baked.
LOL.
and mummy and daddy didn't really liked that it was noisy. and i didn't like it either.
so i guess we won't go there to eat during the 'rush hour' (didn't know how to phrase it.)
so after that we went to buy daddy's present while he went to cut his hair.
then i saw a new balance sport shoes! very very very CHIO.
didn't buy it cause it was too small. :x
i kept saying and saying that i want sports shoes after i got home. LOL.
dajie says that i can go queensway buy.
so far!
kay... today.
i didn't go queensway lah.
i painted kaiqin's room.
and it was green.
and it is very pretty.
it is apple green in the light and lime green when it's dimmer! XD
liked it, though not my room.
mummy said that we can paint our room red and black!
but not sure lah. hehs.
dajie says she can paint her dancer on our wall...
whee.
i guess that's it.
bye bye. :D

tiny giant.

2009-03-27T19:56:00.000+08:00

today i sorta learnt a lesson.
(note: it's values gonna be are boring, but how bout listening to a story? XD)

on the bus...
i boarded the bus and sat on the outside's seat with nobody inside.
while i was half-daydreaming, an uncle came. i paid not much attention.
out of the blue, my ears were blasted with his voice.
" S'CUSE ME!" and he waved his hands shooing me into the seat inside.
and there was another auntie sitting on my left side and had also choose to sit on the outer side.
and he had probably have seen that i was younger and was more likely to be afraid of his loud voice, that's why he most probably had shouted at me instead of the other auntie.
obviously i was on fire. i pulled a long face and was analysing the whole incident.
1) he was rude and could have said "excuse me." instead of "S'CUSE ME!".
2) i shouldn't have sat on the outer seat cause if i hadn't, this would not have possibly happened at all.
so, i continued the bus journey feeling kinda unhappy.
then, the uncle placed his hand on the pole in front of him, and a auntie had accidentally lost her balance, and had collided on his hand.
the auntie was in a good mood and had smiled and apologised.
the uncle stared at her with an amount of anger.
i was greatly unhappy of course, afterall, he shouldn't have stared at people.
then, the auntie that was stared continued standing, not affected by his grumpiness.
after that, the auntie was suppporting her husband who was holding on to a stick.
she asked him whether he had wanted to sit, he declined as the bus was quite crowded at that time.
i REALLY wanted to give up my seat to him but i was sitting inside and the uncle had blocked me.
then i started to think,
if that rude uncle hadn't sit beside me, i would have most probably sat on the outer seat all journey. and that would have meant that some who had needed the seat much would not have a seat if they didn't want to ask.
i felt so guilty. so so very.
then the bus arrived at my stop, by this time, the rude uncle had already been gone and a little primary school girl had sat beside me. she bothered to stand up and walk out to let me alight.
and i, for the first time, said thank you to this sort of kind little act.
she was shocked.
and i felt that change was coming.
i knew the importance of courtesy, not that i didn't know it in the past, but i had a much deeper understanding of it today.
when the rude uncle sat beside me, i thought i would be home blogging/grumbling about how this person had ruined my almost perfect day.
but who knows, a 10 minute ride home was such a lesson for me.
and time had surprisingly, seemed extra slow during my journey.

went to run with xunlin today, but it was more of her running.
ran first trail for 2.4 km at school today, had a timing of 18 min 05 sec.
not a great timing, but at least i didn't feel as bad when i ran.

by the way, i had a great day today, but i had totally forgottened it due to things on the bus, so okay...the above is my almost perfect and fabulous day. hahs.

mummy, what's so funny about me being zillian arh? cannot meh. LOL.

you're turning my world topsy turvy.

2009-03-26T17:19:00.000+08:00

hello! we got new class tee today.

so much better then the last one we had, which was a total failure.

and here it is!

sorry if you have to see my zillian photo. but i thought it would be REAL strange to just snap the picture of the shirt xp. too bad lah.

there's actually not much happening at school today. so there's really nothing to say.

bye bye then. and i liked the class tee this year.

hohoho. not yet christmas.

2009-03-25T21:54:00.000+08:00

hello.
today is a happy day!
cause today is the last day of maths and dance. LOL.
not that i don't like dance lah.
it's just kinda tiring. but i'm quite relaxed actually.
hahs.
and so... today had science and mr neo was making jokes about cortex.
he said that it's not the one starting with a 'k'.
not funny -.-
and then there was an aggressive knocking on walls during today's maths lesson.
LOL. quite funny.
and then they sabo-ed yeow wee and hong jin to do questions, they are like the 'hei bai wu chang'
like that. cause one tall and one short and one black one white.
haha.
then it mr ong's last day. laopo was 'sad'. LOL.
more of huachi-ing lah.
and then we went to find mrs tan to do the D.I.E. thing.
and she was very late.
then me and munyeeng went to cca.
and after dance, me and xunlin twinny went to kfc to eat.
at first she wanted to got to pastamania one. but she no money. LOL.
then were talking of all sorts of funny things.
and she said that jason low is cute. hahaha. laughed like mad.
and also we did the loser thingy cause she say my face got thingy, then i say her face got thingy one then we both got tricked by one another. hahas.
and then lastly, i saw the model for clothes (opposite kfc) then their hands are all on their below stomach and very near that part the place.
rofl. we laughed alot while eating. XD
then i found that i turn horny when i am happy... LOL.
i am not horny kay! kidding only lah.
:}

biesexual.

2009-03-24T21:28:00.000+08:00

haha. i am biesexual.
cause i love all my girlfriends.
haha.
okay lah... now for my day.
had art lessons.
mr teo is not in good mood -.-
fine, shan't elaborate.
then we had lessons as usual...
and the after school, snapped pictures with meixin.
snapped like 10+ pics, so zillian.
cause she say the first one not nice.
cause i very tall.
so i had to go in strange heights like half lying on the chair, squatting... etc.
LOL.
then went for dance...
not much. quite usual.
still funny...
i sang the little bumble bee song...
xunlin sang the tititititi shark song...
yangjin was saying the 3 cheers...
all at 1 time! so noisy.
by the way, got knocked by bike today -.-
auntie stared at me.
so sorry and scared loh.
haha.
that's my day.
XD

happy birthday to yang jin!

2009-03-23T22:22:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday yangjin!
haha. i made this purple.
if you can ever see this, that is.
but still happy birthday. XD

money comes, money goes. man comes, man goes.

2009-03-23T18:58:00.000+08:00

hello. it's the first day of school.
and duh, meixin fell asleep.
i never ever did it! pro huh? :D
and also she fell asleep in chinese class lah.
and today de last part of chinese class was kinda fun.
got the shorten chinese passege thingy. sort of challenging, that's why it's fun :B
cause as you can see, chinese lessons are not really teaching us anything.
something taught, AT LAST.
i am not proud, but i might be cocky.
so what? i have the means to do it! hohoho.
kidding only lah.
okay lah, shall stop crapping...
oh yah! ate xunlin's cup cake today. very nice.
amanda took half T.T
but xiuting one hor, sweeter leh. :x
okay... let's see...
recess was okay, half w/ val and xinting. the other with laopo.
i think dajie installed new messenger.
i think it's harder to use. :X
but still, she's good to install it lah. C:
and haven't you noticed?
i did not post for class gathering after soooooo long.
cause got alot of pics very mafan -.-
kay lah. i nothing much to say liao.
bye bye. XD

some people simply treat it too lightly.
they take it as a game, or something to show off.
sorry to say it, but i think that's childish.

lazy mummy -.-

2009-03-21T18:30:00.000+08:00

just bought dinner just now.
buy for mummy also -.-
had rain dripping on me. T.T
ok lah just random only.
i go eat dinner liao!
bye bye!

:D D:

2009-03-21T15:48:00.000+08:00

i'm happy and not all at the same time.

happy:
because i drank lemon barley in the soda version?
haha. sometimes i can be easily contented XD
because i ate charsiew rice?
haha. same as above.
because i can eat what i like for today and tomorrow as family members all not at home currently?
LOL.

not very:
got tons of homework unfinished.
that's it.

so sad hor.
why need do homework!
D: nevermind.
it's gonna be a good day!
today and tomorrow.

XD

whee...bong! :O

2009-03-20T20:04:00.000+08:00

haha. thanks lah laopo.
i'm just ranting you know.
anyway, today is the last day of dance practice in the holidays!
and it's already friday -.-
and while i need to stay at home to chiong dumb homework, my family is going to live at chalet T.T
nevermind. since i want to stay home...
T.T i want go wild wild wet lah~ LOL.
kay lah kay lah.
so i am rushing homework now and trying to find an excuse to slack by blogging. haha.
so yah.
ohh... since i'll have my expensive house (all houses are expensive kay XD) all to myself!
hahaha... i can do whatever i want now...
don't think dirty kay.
haha.
i shall go now.
:D

i am happy today. and we the cchy chinese dancers are going to show that we are good enough for GOLD! oh please... give it to us! LOL.

kinda viva-less.

2009-03-19T18:24:00.000+08:00

i'm kinda sad now.
cause everyone around me seems to be leaving me.
ONE BY ONE.
are steads so important?
i don't understand.
i'm seriously not biesexual okay.
but i fear and pain of having friends leaving you to go for this dumb guy just makes you wanna die.
not one, not two, it's ALOT.
and the worst thing is that i'm always the last one to know.
cause they simply don't tell me!
why is this so?
i guess that my crave for love isn't as much as before.
it now just means not much to me.
but am i really someone this unlovable and unsocialable?
that nobody wants me at all?
but of course people will obviously choose somebody better.
and to let go? i've long let you go.
Go. as far as you can in fact.
cause i really don't want it anymore.

maybe i'm just thinking too much.
i've told so many people to be happy.
and now i'm complaining and moaning.
i really wish i can have someone to really tell EVERYTHING to.
and how i wish that whenever when i'm down.
there'll be somebody to tell me that....

" when there's no one there, theres always me."

edit/:

i want my friends to be happy.
no matter if they are leaving me alone or not.
so, yup.
bye...

today.

2009-03-19T00:26:00.000+08:00

shall elaborate on today next time.
too tired but happy XD.

happily sick. LOL.

2009-03-14T09:08:00.000+08:00

i was sick today but it's okay after i took my panadol :D
and i sort of lost $10 today cause i was unable to tuition liyee -.-
but that's okay.
and i read ouran on the internet again.
and tamaki is STUPID -.-
fine. i shall go do other things now.